"I guess I just have a hard time getting used to this life is all."
pause.
no wind today.
"not a chance."
"the television is ON!
and you have, now, nothing to say,
after 40 years,
how could you favor this derisive goal
I did, and without controversy or sorrow.
the kitchen light beckons me
so clock it out
guilt trip
pilgrimage?
"not any MORE!
suckers to the grave"
"won't you follow me to die,
I can not take myself anymore"
the ego folk
ultimately, it is true, and NOW you will die always,
don't you KNOW fella, hey."
So, I've been stayin’ up movie/news/sex watchin,
flippin’ in between Washington's continued district of Colombia, "town destroyer" of NY fame"
oil spill rouse with a spice of serendipitous Brazilian ass
fire to the light opening wide and open as the wide crevasse of my grandfather
west Rainier memory, Washington is there too
anyway, so I catch a trenched feeling like we are still at war
in generations of unconscious healing,
the feathersmith of American pride stands thick limbed and Indian in my house,
"who are you?"
why, not
The voice of me, you must be you, and I ME!
the sad, “why try?” and remained silent,
such a kind guy.
I thought,
and felt the presence of myself, as another,
brutish, uninvited,
a burden, a sin,
yet here always, and somehow still loved,
in the creation of an all-Guilt haunt of our collective tribal past,
coming back, and now is…bird's chirp
I take off my shorts, I pray and sweat with black fast of day
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